Music has been such a source of healing for me.
From previous lyrics and so ga by Dax... To major artists... Over the years dealing with my darkness it's been a constant place to turn for what I needed.
I say what I needed because sometimes music is the key to unlock the flood of release I need in that moment. The first time I heard save me by Jellyroll, I called like a baby. The chorus... The words "I'm a lost cause. Baby, don't waste your time on me I 'm so damaged beyond repair" it was like - wait someone else feels that way? Omg thank you, I'm not alone. Because while we depressive folks KNOW others suffer, we know others know exactly how we feel.
But when one is in the depths of an episode, when you feel like you're crawling through a pitch black passage towards a light that is ever-further away and the passageway somehow seems to be shrinking around you? You've never in your life felt more alone despite the aforementioned truths.
In college, it was Stone Sour.... Bother
That song... Was one of the first time lyrics in a song spoke to me. When I was first coming to terms that this wasn't a phase, it wasn't going away, I was struggling.... Hard. "You don't need to bother, I don't need to be" hit to my core... I'm not worth your time, save your breath, it's better used on those worthy of it, not I.
There's been countless others... Here's a few
Linkin Park - In the End - and - Numb
In case you cannot tell which way my musical tastes lay... Well now you do. Also RIP Chester Bennington, I had no idea how big of a part you played in my journey until you passed.... Ironically from the exact affliction I struggle with and write about.
So... In closing .. music heals .. open your mind, open your heart... Let it in, let it sooth you, let it sweep away the anguish, grief, doubt, concerns... Let it sweep out the darkness, and maybe you'll find a little light in your life.
Add comment
Comments